17 April, 2009

Weekends

Nowadays most men lead lives of noisy desperation. ~James Thurber

I wake up to the sound of drilling or hammering or some sort of other construction on most weekends here in Dubai. I am not joking when I say I live in a construction zone. Whether within the building or outside, some sort of tearing down or building up is occurring. Lately the tearing down has been coming from upstairs.

My neighbors, whomever they are, have been fighting. I hear them down here - and I hope that's not what I hear. But her voice - fearful, rapid, high-pitched screaming in I have no idea what language - is hard to ignore. I have to move - leave the room. What to do? Walk around the apartment? Turn up the music? Sit outside in the sandstorm? My reaction is visceral. The screaming pierces my core more than my ears. I have bad memories of this - marital quarrels, partners in conflict - long nights listening to the show my brother was sure to wake me up for or inadvertently hearing on my own and not figuring out how to avoid.

To this day I don't understand the screaming - the need to yell - although it's clearly universal. I don't understand the compulsive drilling either. Neither do I know which is more disturbing.

07 April, 2009

The Ladies' Car on the Red Line

The Metro

47 different Khimar
1 sun hat
1 pair sunglasses
1 banana clip

The girls' club.
All in Hijab.
Yellow and Indigo and Blue and Purple and Violet and Green and Pink and Aqua.
Brown and black and white and lavender and turquoise and olive.

It's packed.
Door-to-door-and-side-to-side
Babies, girls, women, ladies.
The ladies' car.
Beautiful eyes everywhere -
each telling a different story.
Uninhibited laughter.

A baby
eating bread from her mother's hands.
An IPod -
in bubble wrap?

Fierce competition to get into the Ladies' car
elbows out and hips ready to bump.
If you don't get in immediately, the train will leave you
But you won't get left behind again.

06 April, 2009

A Heady Mix

I have an affection for a great city. I feel safe in the neighbourhood of man, and enjoy the sweet security of the streets. ~Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

For the first time since I was in India, I just heard sirens from my abode. This is a wonderful, homey sound – the sound of sirens rushing down the road amid the honking and yelling and barking. I can hear it all - a heady mix of city and life and living – right from the street below to my balcony and into my hotel room at the Conrad Cairo.

I need not even turn on the television for background noise since I have this symphony of spontaneous song serendipitously floating into my space. In fact, today I even turned down the volume on the television so I could enjoy the din of the city below me.

I have the window open to air out the stale smoke smell of my room on the “Non-smoking” floor of the hotel. The curtains billow, flirtatiously – as if to say “catch me if you can” with their come hither gauze. I find it a bit ironic, after traveling to both India and now Egypt, that I was so upset that Dubai is not the “third world” experience I imagined I would have this year. I obsessed over packing my own toilet paper for the trip to India as well as the lack of hand soap in public places last December. Only one day into my trip to Cairo, I have mulled over and grumbled about the way in which cigarette smoke has inundated every public space and the very fabric of the hotel rooms – really no escape for your common non-smoker and especially your former smoker. So, if I had gone to one of the other countries, one of my closer matches – would I have gotten over or gotten used to the filthier aspects of said city the way I am forcing myself to get over and get used to the sterility of Dubai’s?

The façade of the foreign, not foreign, city in which I live, of cleanliness and modernity is a bit too much for even the pickiest of germophobes. I moved from Raleigh to Durham in North Carolina in order to live some place that was more "real" - gritty. Durham was more "third world" than Dubai - at least my side of Dubai - in fact many of the residents even considered themselves part of the fourth world in Durham, as gang members typically do. I do not necessarily feel that I need to reside near gang members in order to feel at home, but to experience the life and the living that occurs on the porches, in the streets, in the stores and in the the community to me is a luxury.

So when I left Mumbai and was surprisingly excited to return to Dubai, referring to it as "Home Sweet Dubai," and most importantly "home," I knew I had had a shift in perspective. When I arrived at the airport in Dubai and saw for the first time cleaning solution that individuals can apply themselves to the toilet seats, I laughed bemusedly. The city I had left with scorn I returned to with appreciation. I knew that as long as I remained in Al Barsha, I would never experience the true overseas, real-city-life experience I crave. But I also referred to the place with "my bathroom," "my bedroom," "my classroom" and "my drive to work" as home. I was satisfied with the transition.

I am now in Cairo. I love the noise, I love the crowds and I absolutely love the architecture. The tall windows with their shutters and the balconies on nearly every residential building take me to the oldest cities on the water - New Orleans, Venice and many other places I have yet to visit. In my many searches for homes since my adult life began, I am continuously looking for the old and the unique in design and I want nothing to do with the new and the modern. Cairo satisfies this craving.

I am, however, reassured by the fact that next year I will move to Bur Dubai, the older part of the city. There I am at least assured to live among the people of the world and the heady mix of the city. It won't be Cairo, and it won't be Mumbai. It won't be Nairobi and it won't be Lusaka. But it will be home, and that's a rare thing for me to come by.

05 April, 2009

Silence (12.18.2008)

A city is a large community where people are lonesome together. ~Herbert Prochnow

Big cities are loud. They combine the cacophony of life in all of its most radiant and defiant forms and mix it up and spit it out with a roar we define always in the present as living. Some cities, particularly the most urbane, are even louder than loud. Cairo, for instance, in Egypt, was identified by The New York Times last spring as being the loudest city in the world.

I would make the bold statement that many cities in India would rival that noise on a given day. In most underdeveloped and developing nations, one will find a great deal of vehicle honking from cars, trucks, motorcycles and rickshaws. Throw in the sound of construction, vendors and the incessant sound of people speaking on their mobiles as well as any other activity going on and we have quite a din. This is true of Mumbai as well.

However, I was thoroughly pleased and as equally grateful to find many moments of calm, quiet and peace in this uber-populated city. I did not intentionally seek them out, I just happened upon them. This may have been the result of many or none of the following: a) there has been an acute drop of tourism since the 26/11 attacks b) there is so much to see and do in Mumbai that not every visitor on any given weekday is at all the same places at the same time, or c) I picked a “good time” to go to the great places I went.

The places I happened to drop in on while out touring the city alone were indeed my favorite. Because I look as though I come from some unidentifiable location, I could just as easily be a local in many countries, and I tend to blend in, (for the most part, other than the camera and my hair); therefore, far less people bother me to give them money or to buy their wares than they do when I am with someone else. Also, because of my anti-tourist attitude, I do my best to make myself as “small” as possible. But there was something far more valuable about these spaces than the fact that I was not affected by the noise of the city – which I unabashedly love - and that is the feeling of light and serenity these locations emit.

I found solitude at Banganga Tank with its winding alleyways and its tucked-away-temples and shrines. It had a meditative vibe, and although right outside of the region were the thriving byways and highways of the city – I could not hear a bit of it. The Hanging Gardens were surprisingly silent as well. There were a few, small groups of tourists, but for the most part it was occupied by pairs of couples sharing their own private world of laughter and whispered words.

Above - The Quit India scene in the Gandhi museum. The museum included a lengthy display of these dioramas complete with captions. They were delightful. Below: The room where Gandhi lived and worked when he was in Mumbai.
Mani Bhavan – the house where Mohandas Gandhi lived and worked when he was in Mumbai – was by far a space that offered up the feeling of Satyagraha - of love and non-violent resistance - which he preached and lived by. The home, on a small, sparsely populated road, lined with trees and speckled by sunlight in the city, was difficult to find, whether I asked a taxi cab driver (three) or travelers by foot (too many to count). While the feeling this small museum – filled with information- emit is so moving it is difficult to explain in words, I felt as though it made my whole trip worthwhile.


The second full day of my stay in Mumbai I hit the Kala Ghoda area, which I thought would prove to be a heady mixture of both culture and solid architecture, met my expectations for the most part, despite the fact I had to omit one locale that had been on my list. I tried to avoid the obvious hot spots, but after being denied entrance to the Keneseth Eliyahoo Synagogue and the Army and Navy Building, I decided to go ahead and hand over my rupees to the museums. After all, they were there and so was I. The National Museum of Modern Art brought me surprising delight. Overhead, music played softly. The space was simple, airy and functional. There may have three other people viewing the art at the same time I did and my heart was filled with joy during my entire visit. There were no art connoisseur wannabes standing right in front of the plaques so I couldn't see them. There were no disagreements between husband and wife about the symbolism of the dog or the basket of fruit. There were no dogs or baskets of fruits. The art was refreshingly raw, original, vibrant and quite simply- amazing.

My heart continued to sing for the remainder of the day. It sang each time to sidled up to the corner and bought a fresh juice from a stand - strawberry, banana, another strawberry and another banana. I navigated my way around the Chhatrapati Shivaji Maharaj Vastu Sangrahalaya Museum (formerly The Prince of Wales Museum of Western India) and my day continued on in this way until I met up with Matt again. I gallivanted around Kala Ghoda from my juice men on the corner back to the museums. I scoured the local art outside Chhatrapati Shivaji Maharaj Vastu Sangrahalaya and Jehangir gallery and found an inexpensive way to buy local art - that I like - to buy and eventually frame to hang in my home one day. I carried the joy I tapped into that morning - and each time I found serenity in the midst of the madness - for the remainder of my trip sin company and sans company.

I [Heart] Mumbai -(12.18.2008)


"All cities are mad: but the madness is gallant. All cities are beautiful: but the beauty is grim." ~Christopher Morley, Where the Blue Begins


Tuesday evening, Matt and I were wandering around the Colaba Causeway looking for a restaurant he had read about in our ever-faithful Lonely Planet guide. We walked down the street stopping selectively at various vendors in the rare instance we had missed someone on our gift list or in the case we saw something specific we were looking for. After walking farther than Matt calculated the restaurant should be, we decided we would just stop in at some of the restaurants we had seen, look at their menus, and then decide from there.

We stopped in one place, and we looked at the menu. It included a wide variety of cuisines, and honestly, I was ready for some non-Indian food for a change; but, it was filled with tourists and I was skeptical that the food would be that good. We decided the place was an option, but we would check out some other menus - which we did. After a couple of stops, we decided it was easier just to go back to the first place. Leopold’s Café.

I was still a little skeptical of the restaurant, as it seemed dubiously Western, but we were there, and there was a healthy mix of ethnicities. We sat down. I took in the atmosphere and went for the pasta recommended by the waiter. Matt, apparently hooked on South Indian food, tried the chicken tikka masala. Our meal was quite satisfying and after we finished we returned to the streets of Mumbai.

The street was bumping. Vendors continued to call out “hello – madam – Pashmina”, “silk ma’am”, “genuine leather”, “kurta”and others whispered in Matt’s ear, “hash?” “coke?”. The children and the women tried to beg for our money, and other tourists, travelers and topsiders continued to hustle with us and past us on the sidewalks. It was rare that we were reminded of the attacks that occurred a little less than one month before.

There is the occasional billboard or sign reminding citizens of their duties to report strange activity, and there is “Aamchi Mumbai,” the huge banner by Virgin Atlantic in support of the city. The Taj Majal Palace hotel is still blocked off on all sides, and the bullet holes are there, and the Oberoi is blocked off as well. But the city carries the energy that seems characteristic of pre- 26/11 and it is the energy that I love, emitted only from our world’s greatest cities – both in size and in ideas- and it is whole and heartfelt.

On our last night in Mumbai, we went out to meet another Fulbright teacher, Enddy. As we were talking over dinner the topic of the attacks came up. Enddy was telling us what route the terrorists took- beginning at the McDonald's nearby then moving down to Leopold’s. Matt and I looked at each other. Both of us were surprised. Of course, while we ate dinner, I had thought that it would be the perfect spot to attack tourists, but it did not occur to meet that that’s what happened.

We walked straight into the restaurant from the sidewalk when we entered the other night. To me, it appeared that the restaurant was intended to be open in the front. "You didn't notice the bullet holes in the windows?" Enddy asked us. "There weren't any windows or doors," we told her. We walked right in.

Prior to our visit that second week of December, there had been doors or windows or both at Leopold's. When we ate there, neither existed. There was a sign stating that leaving unattended items in the restaurant was prohibited, but I assumed it was a protectionist reaction to the Mumbai attacks, or that one of the terrorists had stored weapons at that particular establishment. I hadn't read enough of any one particular news story to know what happened there - my mother was visiting the week of the attacks. I was naive. People died there.



Neither Matt nor I had registered that fact prior to Enddy's transmission of the tale, and looking back now it seems an odd bout of irony, similar to beginning my career as a photojournalism intern on September 10, 2001. Another tale from my past life, something to pass on to whomever happens to be listening. Matt's wife had known about Leopold's, she said when he told her what happened. Most people had known how Leopold's was involved we found out, each time we told the story. Not us. We dined ignorantly in the din in the heart of Mumbai with all the others who occupied the packed restaurant that night. I wonder how many of them knew. I wonder how many of them came because they knew.

When I got back to Dubai, I began reading Shantaram. I picked it up at the bookstore when I was looking for a holiday gift. It came highly recommended and supposedly put Mumbai on the global map and Leopold's in the casual lexicon. I stopped reading the vivid account at some point when scenes in Leopold's intersected with the beginning of school again in January. Coincidence or not, I will pick it up again - probably when summer holiday begins. I will return to my beloved mega city.

Some of the vendors on the streets were selling “I (Heart) Mumbai" tee shirts on the streets. I only saw one woman wearing that shirt in the three days I spent in the city. I do not know what Mumbai was like in the first couple of weeks after the attacks, and I do not know what it was like prior to 26/11. Standing in the center of CST (Chhatrapati Shivaji Terminal), or Victoria Terminus (VT), where more people travel in one day than any other place in the world, it’s hard to imagine stopping the heartbeat of this city. But, I do know this city has the ultimate pulse of humanity, which one finds only in our greatest of cities, where people from every background, from every religion, from every caste, from every class, from every race and from every place come together and live, breathe and work in the same space. It’s the energy that revitalizes some of us and drains others and there’s nothing like it in the world. And I love it.